Nov 4

Unforeseen events…..

Well always taking care of others and not taking your personal wants and needs can end up backfiring and making you miserable.  After ignoring pain for over a week….I finally chose to go get the pain checked out and to my surprise and amazement….I have a blood clot in my right lung.  I have been in the hospital since Friday, November 2nd, being poked and poked and poked with no major changes since I first entered the hospital. I miss my boys. I hate feeling useless and looking like one of the most unattractive women on earth. I am a free spirit. I like to help people and make them happy and laugh and how can I do that when I am stuck in a hospital bed feeling depressed and crying all the time. Its the holidays. There are so many things I have decided in the last month that I want to do and so many things that I want to do for my kids and hubby but can’t because of this set back. I have learned the hard way to listen to my body and don’t wait. So with that being said, I have been reading some amazing books and learning about some amazing authors. I would love to write a book. I would love to travel to New York and just sit and listen to meet some of these authors. I would also like to help out the people who are suffering from the loss and destruction that Hurricane Sandy left behind. My friends and family inspire me…..Chris has always been very supportive of my wants and dreams, and honestly, I didn’t realize until recently that I still had goals and dreams that I want to accomplish. I am going to keep on keeping on and take one day at a time.  However, each day is going to be lived to the fullest….Well as happy as I am that I just got my pain shot…it does make me tired so I am outie for now…. Peace out bloggers…..Until next time….!!~~